Forget The Past. You Don’t Know Anything.

Every once in a while, I write about my actual life up here.  Somehow I always thought something bad would happen if I revealed too much about myself up here.  Blogs are public and open to the world and anyone can see them no matter what.

However, when I wrote about my professor at UMass Boston, Pepi Leistyna dying, suddenly everyone paid attention to this blog.  I didn’t write about him for that reason, but it felt good to write about someone I knew and get my true feelings out there about him.

I guess Pepi opened the floodgates for me about writing about myself and in particular my experience of going to UMass Boston.  What’s making me suddenly so philosophical?  I had my graduation dinner from my program yesterday and I snapped some photos of my lovely classmates, which I will post in below.

But first some musings.  The graduation dinner was in Marina Bay, in Quincy, where I have never visited before, despite living in this city for seven years.  Never been there??  Check it out:

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That first photo is of the UMass campus from the restaurant we were eating at.  My parents were with me and as I looked at the campus, I told reminded my mom about how it had always been my dream to study in Boston.  We also reminisced about how when I was 18, we’d come to Boston for me to go to an accepted candidates weekend at a university that shall remain nameless and it was so terrible that we actually left and sat in Harvard Square for the rest of the day.

A dream delayed I guess.  But I did end up studying in Boston at UMass Boston, a school I didn’t even know existed until I lived here for a while.  I guess we gotta get back to the title.  I cannot stress how little I actually wanted to back to school after graduation school one but the past doesn’t matter and you don’t know anything.  When I showed up to my first class at UMass Boston, all I was worried about was getting all the work done for a subject I had no clue about.  I had little to no knowledge of linguistics going into the degree and was fairly certain that I wasn’t going to be able to learn anything about it.  You don’t know anything about how things are going to turn out.

As I went along in the program, I got to read about things I liked and was interested in and write papers on topics that fascinated me.  I started to look at the world through the lens of language and culture and power.  The ideas were learned about in applied linguistics program were things that I had thought about for years but could never put a name to.  Suddenly, there was an area of study and names to all of these ideas that I knew were valid.

Studying applied linguistics also took me out of the political frame of mind I had always been in.  I had always seen the world along political lines, liberals and conservatives but suddenly none of that mattered.  It was who had the power that mattered and that made the world a lot easier to understand for me.

The program also affected me on a personal level.  I found some really excellent friends that helped me through some tough times in the program.  In the first class I ever took in the program, my professor told us not to talk to anyone else in the class about our midterm.  I thought to myself “who am I going to talk to???  None of these people are going to be my friend.”  It turns out that one of the people from the class has become a very dear friend.

The program was a welcome respite from my work life too.  When I was doing the program, my work life got turned upside down and inside out and school was a place I could go to excel and shine when I felt down about work.

I guess my dream to study in Boston was a dream delayed but a dream ultimately fulfilled in a different way than I had thought.  It all turned out OK in the end!!!!

Congratulations to my fellow classmates!!!!

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One thought on “Forget The Past. You Don’t Know Anything.

  1. Love it, Natalia. What a great time we spent together. Let’s save the good moments and make more awesome moments! ❤️❤️❤️ DL

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